Yes, this is my life

While I was out on a long walk with the kids tonight I had a chance to think. Sometimes its dangerous but tonight I think it was positive and really helpful. I don't think there is any excuse for the behavior you've had. Going to the police and saying I am harassing you, or that you fear for your life is ridiculous. I know why you made up the stories about me and others. Its because deep inside you really hate yourself. You have no real reason to dislike us but its not good enough to just dislike us. You need others to like you more. I get why you do it and you do too. We talked about it for hours while you were here. You know you have these destructive behaviors but you cannot or will not stop it. This is probably why you think I lack empathy. I really don't understand not wanting to help myself, to heal to want a better life. I forgive you. I don't like you, I dont want to be friends but I forgive you. I dont care to hold on to such anger. Its a waste of my time and e

I am feeling really lucky right now. my oldest son is having a lot of problems at home and in school and I am feeling really defeated about all of it and we are finally at a place that both sets of parents can really talk it out, share our feelings and ideas and really support each other in those areas. Its refreshing to know that I can let my guard down and be completely honest. We have come to a place in our lives as parents that we are able to share our frustrations, fears, obstacles in an effort to do the very best we can for our kid. Its taken so long to get this place and so much hard work, failures, trials and tribulation. We had to all screw up so bad and hurt each other and TJ to get here. We had to get past the anger, resentment and possession of it all. I am so grateful for the efforts of Mike, Tony and Kelly. Its something that I once thought was not even possible. We still disagree on things and annoy each other but now we are able to just talk about it, resolve it an