Six Months

Here it is. He's been gone Six whole months. I don't really feel any different than the day he left. I still sit here hoping he will come to me and explain why he did it. I still hope to find a letter in a hidden spot or some sign that he's sorry. There's nothing. Silence. Emptiness. Tears.

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